Tuesday, 12 July 2011

the pen is a tool of confidence, and you are just a tool.

In a ten minute recount of my first trip to china when I was seven years old, my mum noted with amusement that I used a total of twenty-six '然后's, or in English '(and) then's.

As my chinese 3/4 teacher said to us, 天下文章一大抄. It's something along the lines of 'all writing comes from copying/emulation', so my earlier writing all happened to be modelled upon the delightfully trashy books I consumed like wildfire. 'The Babysitters Club' had been a hit with the earlier part of gen y but because of my sister, I was acutely aware of teenage fads in the 90s. The series provided satisfying two-dimensional, typical character descriptions that were always rehashed at the beginning of each book as if to reassure us the ghost writer had not deviated from the norm to provide us with an interesting literary experience or deeper character development, god no. To be fair, kids (and some adults) don't WANT to be challenged to find deeper meaning. They want vaguely relatable characters, a good-vs-evil storyline and clearcut morals, oblivious to or unwilling to accept the fact that this often really is not the way things go, and I'm a staunch believer in the fact that fiction should always contain some kind of truth, be it inherent in the plot fabric, or reflected in an absence thereof.

So when I finally beat down the urge to word-vomit out "'that sounds fun!' exclaimed Tracey, who was tall and slim with curly blonde hair and bright blue eyes", it was for the better. It was still interesting to go over those stories of a nine year old with this jarring, faithfully emulated writing style that make the present-day me only slightly freaking embarrassed.

Writing now kind of bothers me though. It's not for my own benefit and I'm always thinking about the reception. farrrrk daatttt.

/end inner fagdom.
hi kathy :) ♥

Wednesday, 8 June 2011

underlapped and overbooked

doublelapped and doublebooked.
I need to remember when I actually have things on

First thing my dashboard did when I came onto blogspot was inform me of templates that 'make your blog look great on your mobile!' in a convenient pop-up bubble.

pieces of glass that covered my iphone before 7.20am this morning: 1
pieces of glass that covered my iphone after 7.20am this morning: 92843923498237498273847283

Being the genius that I am, of course I'm going to shove my phone haphazardly into my pocket in the way that it will fall out when I'm getting out the car to be run over by several cars all while I'm thinking the phone is safely at home until I call the train station a few hours later to find out it isn't.

Speaking of 'genius', that's exactly the kind of bar at the shoppo Apple store I'll be visiting on Friday to sort this shit out. All I can say is, good thing I found out the ugly truth after my inter sac.

Jessie says:
*why do you always seem to be surrounded by people whose comapny you do not enjoy
____ says:
*cause the people who socialise liek normal people
*annoy me cause they're assholes
*i'd rather hang with weird people then asshole
*oui?
Jessie says:
*i think hanging out with weird people can drive you insne though
*unless you learn to adapt really well
*but then that's just settling, isnt it?
____ says:
*mmm
*oh well?
*uni will be nice?

"A world could be made in five pages, and one that was more pleasing than a model farm. The childhood of a spoiled prince could be framed within half a page, a moonlit dash through sleepy villages was one rhythmically emphatic sentence, falling in love could be achieved in a single word - a glance." --Ian McEwan, Atonement.

and this is why making dioramas in primary school sucked.